elder baron

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yesterday
i was having a
v e r y
bad day.
very.

the climax of a
very bad streak actually.

an email from a friend today helped me see things a little better.

coming from my dear jeffrey who is living in ghana, africa
and has been for the last year and a half (on his mish)
he reminds me:
(this is after listening to my pathetic perspective and current mood, he has been one of the
few in my life that i tell EVERYTHING to...believe me, there are very few and none of which live anywhere close to me)

brief pause for foto:
me & jeff have shared a lot.
even though i feel i've been a crap-ball to him lately,
he's always a good egg.
and a blessing in my life in so many ways.

ok, so
his words:


"...things can really freakin suck sometimes..(yes, you can already tell this is jeff talking)..even a lot of the time. but look what things are really great in your life right now. you have your parents there to give hugs to whenever you want. you have food....real food. you might not appreciate that one like i do, but, OHH, you have real food. tuna fish sandwich. hamburger. steak. pizza. pasta. anything. that stuff makes me happy when ive got it. dont take it for granted. youve got a job. a steady source of income. income that allows you to progress. to buy new things. clothes. music. gifts. schooling. gas. that provides steadiness and sanity, a source of income. you're in school, it might not be easy and quite stressful....but its progression. its making yourself a better, smarter person. an investment. you're healthy. at least to my knowledge, you're not dying...in fact you're quite busy. and so many other things. even, in may, you will have the temple right there. so that you can practically live in it.
(side note: i had joked that i wish i lived in the temple just so i could have peace in my every day) 
basically, you have so so SO much to be happy about whit. too much. its okay to feel bad about things and be overcome by stress. but try and let it pass and remember how much youve been blessed. you might not have everything, but you've got a lot more than most. you have love all around you. you even have kevin. that is reason alone to be happy and stay happy.
i understand where you're coming from and a touch of what your going thru, so these words might not mean much, and im sorry. its all i can do really. "happiness is the object and design of our existence" and if we're not happy, then we need to change and try to be..."
 


there was more in the email than that.
i only selected an excerpt.

i'm blessed with this friendship.
and i really appreciate his reminder.
especially when i think of him being in africa
and all the people he must see that have MUCH less than me.
or most of us.
not even a tuna fish sandwich!
( i love tuna )
or parents.

we often take so much for granted.
i feel selfish.

yet grateful.
i should be happier than i feel.

thankyou, elder baron. 

p.s. - jeff likes to say "fake it to make it" - but my operation "make me happy" is already in sway...
kind of.
changes will be made.  

less me, more you

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be the difference you wish to see in the world.


this touched me.

some of my favorite words to live by:

"if you judge people you don't have time to love them"
-mother theresa-

i was always taught that when i thought my life was hard.
if i was discouraged or depressed.
weighed down with problems
then i should do something for someone else.

without fail
everytime
it works.
i feel better and happy
:)

i am a strong believer that when this life is lived for others,
that is when we are TRULY happy
and life feels fulfilled.

you are often the answer to someone else's prayer.
when was the last time you thought of others' needs
instead of your own?

i've learned the gospel of Jesus Christ
and that LIVING IT is what this life is all about.
it's one thing to believe something...it's another it actually live it.
it's about L O V E
and us living and loving as our Savior would.


ask yourself this every day:
have i done any good in the world today?
have i helped anyone in need?
have i cheered up the sad?
or made someone feel glad?
if not,
 i have failed in deed.

-Will L. Thompson LDS Hymnbook-



LOL = Lots Of Love

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                                                      i feel it.
"LOVE DOESN'T MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND, LOVE IS WHAT MAKES THE RIDE WORTHWHILE"
-ELIZABETH BROWNING-


SINGLE OR NOT,
WITH OR WITHOUT A VALENTINE
LOVE IS ALWAYS IN SEASON
(please don't be the pathetic wallower that complains about being ALONE on such a holiday...get over yourself!! there's no worse company than someone who complains. love does not always constitute romance. in spanish they call it the "Day of Love and Friendship". it entails SO MUCH: love!)
YOU GOTTA GIVE A LITTLE TO GET A LITTLE
DON'T BE THE VALENTINE GRINCH - FIND THE REASON FOR THE SEASON
and even YOUR heart can grow two sizes too big!

happy valentine's day.



ps: my happy place is preparing to file for bankruptcy...i hate technology for taking Borders away from me.
read more about it here

walk the walk

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purple skies.
hazel lights.
fireflies.
new horizons.
in the spring,
gray turns green.
hope once dead
is
brought to life.

shady tree.
shoes in hand,
with my bare feet in the sand.
spanish poems.
skipping stones.
the dusty road then takes me home.

people have told me
how to be happy
but i find
their remedy's e m p t y
these are my pearls,
God's treasures unfurled
mean more to this girl
more than
the world
to me.

photographs
from the past.
summer naptime
in the grass.
constellations in the sky
the northern lights will make you cry

grant me twenty thousand wishes.
cover me with lavish things.
but i believe in loaves and fishes
m i r a c l e s
and mustard seeds.

people have told me
how to be happy
but i find
their road
is empty
these are my pearls
God's treasure unfurled
me more to
this girl
more than
the world
to me.



when you know something.
you feel it
believe it
KNOW it,
.
.
.
then live it.

too many people these days give in
waver
follow the crowd
it's easier to always try and fit in.

i will stand
i will not fall
in a world that's weak
i will be strong
i'll be true
i will choose His way
i know what's right
and i will not change
in a world where so many will not
...i will.


2.4.2011

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joshua radin love
he's even better live than on his cds
i love this song of his:


another:

my latest obsession
miss anya marina
i could listen to her voice all day


i saw her live last night @ center stage.
incredible.