i haven't been updating this much lately.
tisk tisk.
really, i should, because i got this great Groupon for blurb.com
they will print my blog in book form...
journaling 21st century!
between my blog AND my hand written journals
my life and thoughts will be well remembered.
i think journals are very important.
anyway... HELLO SPRING!
overlooking the week's rain...the sun was beautiful today.
dad's "terracing" the veggie garden, it's looking great.
hauling all the bricks for it was a work out - for me at least. ha!
mom did something to her back last night and walks around extra slow and half hunched.
the gorgeous weather and bad back made her cry this morning because she can't go out
and do all the work she had planned to in the yard.
that's her playground...gardening.
i felt bad, so i went out for her and removed the sticks and pine cones
from the rain/wind we've had
and raked the pine needles and leaves and re-groomed the pine islands.
the weather today was ideal indeed!
the dogwoods and azaleas are in full bloom. it's SPRING!
(notice all the pollen on the leaves from the pine trees...kinda ruins the picture...meh)
general conference saturday today!
it was a little bittersweet seeing as i've been with kevin the last 4 general conferences.
but saturday is always my favorite conference day.
and today fulfilled my expectations.
to remember:
The errand of angels is given to women.
"Fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith."
-President Thomas S. Monson-
Our desires become our priorities and reflect in our
actions/decisions/who we are/what we accomplish.
are MY desires/priorites what they should be?
i need to re-align my focus in life.
Members of the LDS church by the end of 2010: 14,131,467
my second mission reunion was this weekend in utah.
i wish i could have gone.
hopefully by next time both kevin and i can go together.
it seems for a while now there have been no updates in kevin getting here.
the complications have been endless.
his family has been dealing with really discouraging situations lately.
when it rains it pours.
and sometimes you feel like you have every force against you.
it gets emotionally exhausting.
i'm to the point where i'm tired of hearing about other people's engagements
so happy together and even married already.
while kevin and i still are waiting just to be together.
it's been 6 months now.
and i don't think other people understand what it's like.
i try to not be bitter or angry or jealous or hopeless.
it gets lonely though.
and frustrating.
you know the tv show The Office...
in the first seasons when Pam was engaged for 3 years with no wedding in sight.
sometimes i feel like that will be me.
i don't want to go out and do anything
because the only person i'd want to do things with isn't even in the country.
and if i do go out...i'm boring. i'm not myself.
so i'd rather stay home.
LAME. i know.
sorry, i talk about this a lot.
and no one wants to read about it probably.
but, this is my blog. this is how i feel.
and getting it out...helps me feel better.
self-pity-party now over.
i've gone red potato crazy this week.
bought a HUGE bag of them.
so i made some yummy potato salad.
then i wedged them and roasted them with olive oil, parmesean and rosemary (mmm)
now i'm trying to come up with other ideas.
suggestions?
i want to go to colombia for my birthday.
