only the curious have something to find...

everybody has their "happy" songs on their playlist.
you know, the ones that when they come on, it puts you in a good mood?
this has always been one of mine...
and i want to share it with you...

by Nickel Creek

"you dream of colors that have never been made,
you imagine in songs that have never been played..."

my playlist is always full of Nickel Creek.
i lovelovelove them.
i wanted to cry when they broke up.
...chris thile, their mandolinist, wanted to go solo.
(he has some great solo stuff, btw)
but i miss Nickel Creek.
this is my tribute to them...
some of my favorite songs of theirs
"where can a dead man go? a question with an answer only dead men know.
but i'm gonna bet they never really feel at home
if they spend their lifetime learning how to live in rome..."

"when you're soaring through the air, i'll be your solid ground.
take every chance you dare, i'll still be there,
when you come back down...
angel, you were born to fly.
and if you get too high,
i'll catch you when you fall..."

"you're staring the stars, jealous of the wish you could fly..."

there's no video for it,
but their song, "Hanging By A Thread"
it hits home for me every time.

Nickel Creek.

how my mind works...


after much contemplation, it has been decided:

everyone at some point in their life has been asked the question,
"if you could have any super power, what would it be?!"
common answers:
 - flying (...sure, that'd be cool)
- breath under water (....meh)
- shapeshift (...sweet, but you'd be nothing but a liar)
- read people's minds (...creep)
- go back in time ('re not God, ok)

i think the most rad thing EVER....
would be
the power to never need sleep.
am i wrong?
think of the possibilities!!!!
and of how that would change your life and what you could accomplish.
there are no down sides to this.
never getting tired.

FACT: by the time we're 75 years old, averaging 7 hours of sleep a day,
we will have wasted 22 years of our lives SLEEPING!!!!!

i've gone through my times of avoiding sleep,
without fail, i make myself sick
then i spend a couple days in bed making up for the sleep i tried to avoid
it's no use.
so i've grown fond of my naps and plenty of rest.
it'd be great if my brain and body functioned without any of that though.

the next topic on my mind...

when things stay the same for too long or just don't agree with my emotions
i get antsy and frustrated and can't handle it
so i seek ways to remedy the situation.

i'll start by analyzing my goals and progress to make myself feel better and accomplished.
with the new year, i established many goals.
one being budgeting better/saving...
yet i find myself to be a therapeutic shopper, so my bad day or frustration justifies a new cardigan (which i will totally wear all the time)
$100 worth of oil paints.
they were on sale though! (30% off @ Hobby Lobby. deal.)
ok, the cardigan i didn't NEED
but considering another goal i have is to use the dozen blank canvases stored
under my bed and in my closet,
$100 out of my savings is ok, ......right???

usually then, to clear my head, i'll go to Borders or Barnes n Noble for a couple hours
and peruse the books.
it works well for me
but i ended up leaving with another purchase,
it's a really rad art magazine and the new issue was out, i couldn't help it.

to complete my streak of impulsive behavior
which happens about once a month, do the math...
i ended up @ Paul Mitchell hair salon and came out a redhead.

  change is good.
it's refreshing.
and for me, therapeutic.
even if it is my hair color.
pathetic, yes.
don't judge me.

my weekly reminder: don't feel sorry for yourself. no matter how bad your situation,
things could ALWAYS get worse.
i was watching Ever After, and that quote hit home to me.

is it better to be born without sight, or go blind later in life?
is it better to have your heart broken, or to never have loved?
is ignorance really bliss?

...your thoughts would be greatly appreciated...

one of my favorite things...

i like to read.
a lot.
i was the quiet little girl that always had her nose stuck in a book
and i liked reading out loud to my mom and grandparents
and telling stories.
Roald Dahl was my childhood favorite. i collected his books.
The BFG was the B E S T!

anytime kevin hears that i'm reading, he jokes with me that i must be bored.
i explain to him that reading for me is like soccer to him.
i look forward to it.
it makes me happy.


last night i finished my latest book infatuation.
ok, maybe not infatuation,
but i really enjoyed them.
i was skeptical at first...i never thought i was into that fantasy stuff
i mean, other than the Twighlight series and Interview with a Vampire. i read those.
oh...let's not forget Harry Potter...the ones i read, i loved.
i also enjoyed The Hobbit back in middle school.
come to think of it, i guess i do like fantasy...haha.
i'm such a nerd!
 this about demon slayers.
ha! yes.
don't judge me.
they pull you in!
over the course of 2 weeks i read all three.
the fourth will be out in april.
 go figure...they're currently casting for the movies i found out.
i like reading the books before i see the movies,
so at least i'm ahead of the game.
though i'm still waiting for my Hunger Games movies to come out too.
i'll add these to my list.

i would like to thank wil for suggesting i read these.
if anyone else has a good read in mind...
i'm always taking recommendations.

if you are looking for something to read...
my favorite:

i also love...
 *Jane Eyre*
*The Essential Writings of Ralph Waldo Emerson*
*Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close*
*Into the Wild*
*Man's Search for Meaning* (gives you perspective on life)

my lil niece, Zia, will have eye surgery...
she's not in glasses anymore right now
hopefully all goes well with her operation and her lil eyes will be fixed.
she's in our prayers...




What aspects of personality does this tell me about?

There has been much research on how people describe others, and five major dimensions of human personality have been found. They are often referred to as the OCEAN model of personality, because of the acronym from the names of the five dimensions
Openness to Experience/Intellect
my results:

Openness to Experience/Intellect
High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative.

You enjoy having novel experiences and seeing things in new ways. 
(Your percentile: 80)

High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent.

You are neither organized or disorganized.  
(Your percentile: 46)

High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet.

You are neither particularly social or reserved.
(Your percentile: 42)

High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous.

You tend to consider the feelings of others.
(Your percentile: 79)

High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy.

You are generally relaxed. 
(Your percentile: 22)

i was bored, ok?
guess i should try being more organized.
and now i see i'm not completely a hermit...but i'm not a social butterfly either.
and i'm content with that. 

you learn something new everyday...
today i learned
-that 45% of what humans do everyday is habitual routine
-Americans spent $650 million dollars last year buying Febreze. wow. what a waste of money.

i've also decided that from now on kevin and i will only communicate in english.
it's going to be weird considering up until now our whole relationship has been in spanish.
but i feel it's a wise decision.
he's not going to like it very much, but whatever.

side note: Longhorn's has theBEST baby back ribs...fall-off-the-bone-goodness
and their half-rack is enough to feed a family! or maybe my waiter was just generous?
fact: when i was 7, i could down more ribs than my dad.

WiNTER 2011

January 2011
here's to the new year that brought...

it's a pretty view.
i love to see the snow clumped on the green pines.

however this ice has kept me stuck at home.
i can't even go to Border's to get a new book to read and enjoy during this weather.

the roads won't permit it.

though i won't lie...this storm had ideal timing.
i've been off-and-on sick since new years.
canceled work for two days = PERFECT
because i've spent my time in bed.
achy and with a fever.
though today i had an appetite to eat a small bowl of chicken dumpling soup.
so far it has settled
and there has been no urgent runs to the bathroom

maybe we'll be back at work tomorrow.
i think so.
the ice is starting to slush up some.
it was SO not fun trying to de-snow and de-ice my car.
i had to put a pick-axe to it first to crack the top layer of ice.

all my utah friends are probably laughing at this right now.
i'm sorry, here in the south we don't DEAL with this much.
6 inches of snow and the whole dagum state shuts down!
true story.

*happy winter*

other news..
manda and braden had their reception... was lovely...

and ryan caught amanda's bouquet...
you know what THAT means...

...too bad i did not document the stellar dance-after-party.

one week of my online/night classes down...
and i'm on top of the game!
go me!
don't's been 2 years since i did any schooling
and i've never done online classes.
it can be a scary thing.
especially while working fulltime
and trying to fulfill a new years resolution of "being more social"
i also like my personal time, thank you.

Kevin took his English test today
...pray all went well...
the poor kid was so nervous
...a lot hangs on how well he does.

so this is the new year....


shaun, jake, nate and i went to downtown atlanta to watch the PEACHdrop!
we enjoyed our first hour of the new year on a downtown rooftop

i was sick and doped up on meds,
but we all agree that so far....2011 is the BEST YEAR EVER!

now...reviewing my past year
i've decided to post

now...remember...i spent the first half of my year in puerto rico
and barbados - in a different life/world
and really NOT in the loop of anything going on
so my best just that

best book
in this case...series...
i couldn't put them down.
maybe i'm mainstream.
but i can't wait for the movies!
'nuff said.
top 2010 new albums WORTH my listening to
LCD Soundsystem
This Is Happening


Arcade Fire
The Suburbs

other noteworthy albums of the year:

Vampire Weekend: Contra

 Camila: Dejarte de Amar

Aventura: the Last                     Gotan Project: Tango3.0
Sufjan Stevens: The Age of Adz


for me
my 2010
for best all around

great cast.
made me want to see it AGAIN...

i loved it.

i'm not a movie-goer every weekend.
mainly because it's so dagum expensive these days.
but i also enjoyed these from the year...

...i cried more than i had an unexpected ending.

i love my comic book movies!
and i am a scarlett johansson fan.
her and angelina jolie are my chick faves.

yes, i am a fan!
loved the books.
watch the movies.

i thought this was the cutest warm fuzzy girly movie!

HARRY POTTER 7 would probably be up here, but i still haven't seen it.
lame, i know!

and honestly, i can't even remember all the movies i saw this year to make this list.

2010 was a great year for me.
remembering great moments... family i left in puerto rico last day on the mish in puerto rico
coming home to see my family after 18 months...
my sister, Tamaron, got married in the Mesa, AZ temple
i went to Colombia to visit mi amorcito
and meet his family...
fast forward a bit...
the year ended great...
my whole family together for Christmas.
and a reunion of friends...

...happy times had by all.
i'm still compiling my "hopes and dreams for the future"/goals list for 2011...
as of now...
  • budget up/buy a car
  • and a new digital SLR
  • speak slower (when i talk to people @ work on the phone, many tell me i talk too fast..ha..i'm working on it!)
  • be more may laugh, but it's true. if you know me, you know what i'm talking about
  • continue my education: get back to school/get good grades... and read more
  • move west when kevin gets stateside and be :) con el amor de mi vida
  • BODA!
  • not so much lose weight...but get in shape..more exercise regularly!
  • practice piano more
  • get some paintings done
  • put my art to good use...get some $$ out of it
  • manage my time better - don't procrastinate as bad :)
  • notice needs of others more - quit living so selfishly
  • don't complain
  • go back to Puerto Rico to visit
  • improve guitar skills list is growing on the daily...
dream big, right?!



(cheesy pose, yes...blame our mother)

the tutt family grandchildren in their new jammies!