Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

feelings.

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missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them
or the amount of time since you talked
it’s about that very moment when you’re doing something
and wishing 
they were right there 
with you.

i have this uncontrollable urge right now
to swim laps.
the sound of silence underwater
accompanied by my thoughts
and my feeling as light as a feather.

everything 
is going to be alright.
maybe not today…
but eventually. 


"i have found the paradox. 
that if you love until it hurts,
there can be no more hurt. 
only more love."
Mother Teresa



the remedy:
pride and prejudice
(i will not admit how many times i've watched this movie)
and re-painting my nails.
 

it's true

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best dad ever.
absolutely.
hands down.
we got the cream of the crop.
creme de la creme.
te amo...

i think he was most excited about the new reads we got him.
he devours books.
that, and the flan mamita made him for dessert
:)




daily doodle...



less me, more you

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be the difference you wish to see in the world.


this touched me.

some of my favorite words to live by:

"if you judge people you don't have time to love them"
-mother theresa-

i was always taught that when i thought my life was hard.
if i was discouraged or depressed.
weighed down with problems
then i should do something for someone else.

without fail
everytime
it works.
i feel better and happy
:)

i am a strong believer that when this life is lived for others,
that is when we are TRULY happy
and life feels fulfilled.

you are often the answer to someone else's prayer.
when was the last time you thought of others' needs
instead of your own?

i've learned the gospel of Jesus Christ
and that LIVING IT is what this life is all about.
it's one thing to believe something...it's another it actually live it.
it's about L O V E
and us living and loving as our Savior would.


ask yourself this every day:
have i done any good in the world today?
have i helped anyone in need?
have i cheered up the sad?
or made someone feel glad?
if not,
 i have failed in deed.

-Will L. Thompson LDS Hymnbook-



LOL = Lots Of Love

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                                                      i feel it.
"LOVE DOESN'T MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND, LOVE IS WHAT MAKES THE RIDE WORTHWHILE"
-ELIZABETH BROWNING-


SINGLE OR NOT,
WITH OR WITHOUT A VALENTINE
LOVE IS ALWAYS IN SEASON
(please don't be the pathetic wallower that complains about being ALONE on such a holiday...get over yourself!! there's no worse company than someone who complains. love does not always constitute romance. in spanish they call it the "Day of Love and Friendship". it entails SO MUCH: love!)
YOU GOTTA GIVE A LITTLE TO GET A LITTLE
DON'T BE THE VALENTINE GRINCH - FIND THE REASON FOR THE SEASON
and even YOUR heart can grow two sizes too big!

happy valentine's day.



ps: my happy place is preparing to file for bankruptcy...i hate technology for taking Borders away from me.
read more about it here

walk the walk

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purple skies.
hazel lights.
fireflies.
new horizons.
in the spring,
gray turns green.
hope once dead
is
brought to life.

shady tree.
shoes in hand,
with my bare feet in the sand.
spanish poems.
skipping stones.
the dusty road then takes me home.

people have told me
how to be happy
but i find
their remedy's e m p t y
these are my pearls,
God's treasures unfurled
mean more to this girl
more than
the world
to me.

photographs
from the past.
summer naptime
in the grass.
constellations in the sky
the northern lights will make you cry

grant me twenty thousand wishes.
cover me with lavish things.
but i believe in loaves and fishes
m i r a c l e s
and mustard seeds.

people have told me
how to be happy
but i find
their road
is empty
these are my pearls
God's treasure unfurled
me more to
this girl
more than
the world
to me.



when you know something.
you feel it
believe it
KNOW it,
.
.
.
then live it.

too many people these days give in
waver
follow the crowd
it's easier to always try and fit in.

i will stand
i will not fall
in a world that's weak
i will be strong
i'll be true
i will choose His way
i know what's right
and i will not change
in a world where so many will not
...i will.


2.4.2011

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joshua radin love
he's even better live than on his cds
i love this song of his:


another:

my latest obsession
miss anya marina
i could listen to her voice all day


i saw her live last night @ center stage.
incredible.

only the curious have something to find...

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everybody has their "happy" songs on their playlist.
you know, the ones that when they come on, it puts you in a good mood?
this has always been one of mine...
and i want to share it with you...

"THIS SIDE"
by Nickel Creek

"you dream of colors that have never been made,
you imagine in songs that have never been played..."


my playlist is always full of Nickel Creek.
i lovelovelove them.
i wanted to cry when they broke up.
...chris thile, their mandolinist, wanted to go solo.
(he has some great solo stuff, btw)
but i miss Nickel Creek.
this is my tribute to them...
some of my favorite songs of theirs
.
.
.
"where can a dead man go? a question with an answer only dead men know.
but i'm gonna bet they never really feel at home
if they spend their lifetime learning how to live in rome..."


"when you're soaring through the air, i'll be your solid ground.
take every chance you dare, i'll still be there,
when you come back down...
angel, you were born to fly.
and if you get too high,
i'll catch you when you fall..."


"you're staring the stars, jealous of the moon...you wish you could fly..."




there's no video for it,
but their song, "Hanging By A Thread"
it hits home for me every time.

anyway,
Nickel Creek.
amen.

how my mind works...

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after much contemplation, it has been decided:


everyone at some point in their life has been asked the question,
"if you could have any super power, what would it be?!"
common answers:
 - flying (...sure, that'd be cool)
- breath under water (....meh)
- shapeshift (...sweet, but you'd be nothing but a liar)
- read people's minds (...creep)
- go back in time (...you're not God, ok)


i think the most rad thing EVER....
would be
the power to never need sleep.
am i wrong?
think of the possibilities!!!!
and of how that would change your life and what you could accomplish.
there are no down sides to this.
never getting tired.
iLOVEit


FACT: by the time we're 75 years old, averaging 7 hours of sleep a day,
we will have wasted 22 years of our lives SLEEPING!!!!!


i've gone through my times of avoiding sleep,
without fail, i make myself sick
then i spend a couple days in bed making up for the sleep i tried to avoid
it's no use.
so i've grown fond of my naps and plenty of rest.
it'd be great if my brain and body functioned without any of that though.




the next topic on my mind...

when things stay the same for too long or just don't agree with my emotions
i get antsy and frustrated and can't handle it
so i seek ways to remedy the situation.

i'll start by analyzing my goals and progress to make myself feel better and accomplished.
with the new year, i established many goals.
one being budgeting better/saving...
yet i find myself to be a therapeutic shopper, so my bad day or frustration justifies a new cardigan (which i will totally wear all the time)
or
$100 worth of oil paints.
they were on sale though! (30% off @ Hobby Lobby. deal.)
ok, the cardigan i didn't NEED
but considering another goal i have is to use the dozen blank canvases stored
under my bed and in my closet,
$100 out of my savings is ok, ......right???

usually then, to clear my head, i'll go to Borders or Barnes n Noble for a couple hours
and peruse the books.
it works well for me
but i ended up leaving with another purchase,
BlueCanvas.
it's a really rad art magazine and the new issue was out, i couldn't help it.

to complete my streak of impulsive behavior
which happens about once a month, do the math...
i ended up @ Paul Mitchell hair salon and came out a redhead.

  change is good.
it's refreshing.
and for me, therapeutic.
even if it is my hair color.
pathetic, yes.
don't judge me.

my weekly reminder: don't feel sorry for yourself. no matter how bad your situation,
things could ALWAYS get worse.
i was watching Ever After, and that quote hit home to me.

youtellme:
is it better to be born without sight, or go blind later in life?
is it better to have your heart broken, or to never have loved?
is ignorance really bliss?

...your thoughts would be greatly appreciated...

We No Speak Americano

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Ok...so after all the planning and waiting and anticipation...i went and came back and it's 
O V E R!
ALREADY!!!!
colombiailoveyou.
now for the report:
getting there i was so anxious i couldn't function. 
3 hours of sleep the night before and 4 long flights ahead of me, yet i couldn't sleep a wink all day on the plane.
Atlanta to South Carolina to Miami to Cartagena, Colombia and FINALLY
to Pereira.
ONLY, with my luck, by the time we got to Pereira, it had been raining so hard they closed the airport and flew us to Bogota where we waited on the weather to improve.
I made friends with the adorable family next to me who let me borrow their cell to call Kevin and explain why I wasn't at his airport. They told me all about all the things to do in Pereira, asked about me and Kevin and how we met and it was great because of course the mish came up and I took the opportunity to talk about the church. 
They're catholics...but not active.
They'd seen the stake center in Pereira, so I invited them to General Conference the coming weekend! 
Anyway...before we parted, the husband gave me a really neat woven wood bracelet with the colombian flag colors. 
I love making new friends :)
ANYWAY...I made it to Kevin by 10pm instead of 6pm. 
Long day.
But worth it.


 i feel like i've known Kevin for years.
everything was just perfect.
there are some things your heart just knows.
and yes...
it's L O V E
 weather was...usually overcast. 
it drizzles a lot.
but sunny times in the afternoon too.
evenings and nights cool...though there they think it's freezing. hardly.
i walked the famous VILLADUCTO bridge...
modeled after the one in san fran, ca.

 In Colombia every street  is full of life...always music...
I'm pretty positive I heard this song everyday while I was in Colombia.
Many great memories are linked to it now.
So I thought I'd share...
If you haven't heard it already...aqui esta...






One night Kevin, his cousin Leslie, and I went to go visit Leslie's boyfriend at his work...
he's a DJ at a club. Club Karma.
Only the club was too full and wouldn't let us in, so we walked to the corner and Leslie treated me to the yummiest thing EVER.
 "Arepa Rellena"
Literally meaning "Filled Arepa"
An arepa is kind of like a really thick corn tortilla. 
In this case they sliced it open and it worked like a pita bread pocket.
It was stuffed with melted cheese, chicken, pork, cabbage on top, a slice of crispy bacon...and a mini hard boiled egg on top.
They have sauces that you can put on top too.
iLOVEDit.
Kevin said it's kind of like their hamburger. Only to me...ten times better.
a small vid of it...


Here is Leslie (basically Kevin's sister, they've grown up in the same house since birth) and her boyfriend Harold.
They've been together 4 years. 
I just love them!
and miss them already.

We did make it into the club while he was DJing on another night.
I tried to take a video of him.
It was way dark though.

 

this is Lady Tatiana Contreras Lopez.
Kevin's lil sister.
she's 20.
DON'T call her Lady, she hates it.
It's Tatiana. Or Tati.
she's tall and skinny and studying to be a teacher.
lots of boys like her, 
but she doesn't like any of them because she's grown up with them like brothers.
she laughs at a lot of things, which makes me laugh.
she's also had long long hair like this her whole life.
she's funny...when we all got Raspoa (shaved ice with flavors and sweetened condensed milk and other toppings)...
she just asked for shaved ice with a ton of lime juice all over it.
that is Tati.
love her!


the rest of us that day:
Juan Pablo, Tati, me, Kevin, Les, Harold



here is me and kevin and his mom.
Victoria.
she is incredible.
she turned 50 this year.
she was a convert to the church in her 20's.
been 100% active ever since.
thanks to her, all 3 of her kids have grown up strong members.
and her two sons served missions.
her children are her life.
(kevin-23, ivan-21, tatiana-20)
so many hugs and kisses everyday even though her kids are older...
i love the love in their family!
i admire her because she's such a strong woman having raised a family as a single mom.
kevin's dad left them when he was 4, i believe, and is now somewhere in Chile.
no one knows.
Even though she suffers from a heart condition which slows her down, 
she never stops.
She treated me as her daughter while i was there.
all she has, she gives for others.
and she's HILARIOUS.
she strikes up a conversation with anyone anywhere 
and can always bring a smile to their face.
ha...some of the things she says!
she also always brings the church into the conversation somehow.
a very admirable woman.
Often kevin would have to leave for classes at the U or for other errands...
Me and his mom would have time together and had many lovely conversations.
she truly is a wonderful and admirable woman.

with the fam...
tati, mami, kevin, me, ivan...
(granted the fam is bigger, they live with their grandma, aunt, 
and three cousins which are considered siblings too)
Ivan also served a mish in Puerto Rico.
Him and Kevin left and came home the same days.
Only Ivan served in the West mission and Kevin was in the East mish.
he's 21.
he is THE nicest guy I've ever met.
and so selfless.
and ALWAYS with a BIG smile.
except here...haha...seems he's not so photogenic.
neither is kevin though :)
fotos don't do them justice.
Ivan works visiting medical patients and also studies at the U.
he helped take care of my bronchitis while i was there
and always washed my dishes.
He would also always practice his english with me.
He has a super cute girlfriend Natalia...I hope they get married.
oh love.


***i have more...but for some reason i can't access my videos right now, so sit tight and wait for Colombia Report Part II :) COMING SOON***


other news:
I got a call yesterday from "Vicky with the National Fraud Recovery Department".
She proceeded to ask me if i had authorized a $400 check
which i hadn't.
So she said she'd cancel it.
then she tried telling me she needed to "update" their system 
and wanted my new bank account number. 
HA!
After 3 strikes of people emptying my bank account with
fraudulent checks
and changing my account completely...
they think they are going to get me again by asking for it over the phone??
these dirty little rats!
 After our interesting conversation i tried calling her back...
go figure...it's not a working number.
what kind of world do we live in!
Dear "National Fraud Recovery Department":
YOU SUCK! 
and you will never again steal my money. 

9.18.2010

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I'm going to COLMBIA!!!!!
apologies...i'm just so ecstatic.
you have no idea.

i know what you're thinking...colombia? uh, druglord captial of the world and i'm going to get myself shot.
first, not too long ago, London was considered the "cocaine capital of the world" and how many people travel THERE? plenty. now it's afghanistan that's the most highly infested with drug activity.
but sadly, in this world we live in, really what country doesn't have those problems in their streets?
and now...the "murder capital of the world" is Mexico.
very comforting knowing my grandparents still live down there and refuse to leave. it has my mom losing sleep.
anyway, point being, Colombia has actually become a very safe place for travel. given you don't go out alone or at night in sketchy parts of town...but that's obvious for even here in the ATL!
i'm not nervous at all. i feel really good about it. ok, i AM nervous, but just about what kevin's family is going to think of me...i don't want to come across as a "spoiled american". yah know?
anyway...i've been saving up my paychecks and FINALLY purchased my flight...
SEPTEMBER 30th!!!
so soon!
:)
this is me getting pumped...
i like to google info about the place and town kevin lives in...where i will be staying for 10 days.
He lives in Pereira, Colombia...which is HERE:


it's in a more mountainous region of the country which is apparently beautiful. a little chilly. and rains often. he says they don't have seasons there...it's about the same year round. one week can be sunny and the next cold. i find it interesting that it gets cold considering it's part of the equitorial region of the world. altitude i guess.

thanks to google...some fotos of the place...i'm excited to go and take my OWN.

my dad asks me what i'm going to be doing while i'm down there.
well...it will be general conference when i first get there. so i'll see my 4th in spanish.
kevin's family tell me i'm going to eat and eat and eat and i'll probably come home FAT there's so much they want me to try. i'm ok with that.
not the fat part. the food part :)
and kevin tells me i'm going to dance and dance and dance.
salsa, merengue, bachata
loveit!
seeing as kevin is a "futbol" fanatic, he says we'll go to a soccer game while i'm there.
and that i'll get to see his whole city.

it's going to be well worth my saved up pennies.
i love getting to know new cultures...meeting new people...seeing/trying new things...
and all the while being with the person who makes my heart go pitter-patter. :)

so there you have it.
12 days and counting.
...